Xanax Hearted Gurl

Xanax hearted girl
Makes me better feel than
Where here I am
It makes me go better places than
Where here I am

You should be stoped.
Should be

Dead soul, dead life
Dead dad, dead dad
Dead soul, dead life
Dead dad, dead dad
Why? Why? Why?

Dont wanna see 'em
Dont wanna go home
Dont wanna feel that feeling again
Don't don't donttttttt

Dead soul, dead life
Dead dad, dead dad
Dead soul, dead life
Why? Why? Why?
Why are you so egominiac?

Dead, dead, dead, dead, dead, dead
Cuz my soul is dead bitch
Cuz imma xanax hearted gurrll
Xananaaxxxx

Kill this time
Kill all over the world
Dont be good
Cause this world wont be worth it.

my complicated life

Last year I met with my dreams boy. Okay, I'm starting to tell all storie;

We were drinking in our favorite pub in Kadıköy. and I was little drunk.  Me and my friends exit from the pub. And you know guys, me and my friend is little drunk, so we do not know what we doing. And, singing on the street while we're walking. Our sober friend says to us "shut up, I must meet with my friend, would you come?" In this case, I can not go to home, without sober up. So, I said "okay". Finally, we arrived to my friend's, friend. And I was charmed. I wish I could live that moment again. He was gorgeous, handsome, wonderful. I was drunk, but I can tell everything about him at that day. I realised, I will never forget him. It was like.. Um... No, I can not explain that statue. But I can say,  it was really, really amazing. He said to my friend "Don't you met me, with your friends?".  My friend said "of course" . She point to me, and said "she's Alexis". He said to me hi, and I said to him hi. I smiled like a stupid. I felt it he like it. And he looked at me for a long time. And I missed my eyes. You know guys, it was like cliche. But very immortal memories for me. On that day, to be honest, we were just met. And I am classic teenage girl I though "He's already forget me. I am ugly, he didn't like me."etc. And I opened my Facebook. Guess what happened? He added to me? me? me? OMG! I felt amazing. I accepted him. And our storie started with this. I'll write storie's more.

"best friend"

Last year, I started to high school. First day, I met with Tawni(not her real name, ı wont give you real names). Tawni and I very closed friends in a little while. I loved she, because she was so funny, so sweet etc. And we were hanging out everyday. I thought she was my best friend. Our friendship took 6 months. 6 months after, she changed. She find new friends. It hurted me. I trying to win her again, trying to be friend with her again. But she, forgotten me. It really hurts. And now, we're not speaking. Just "hi, how are you" etc. Our all friendship is this. She's really bad. Now, I'm trying to don't give a fuck. When I see she, I'm trying to seem like I'm so happy. But reality is, IM NOT HAPPY. I think, friendship is not this. Real friends, dont forget to each other. I hate her. She's dont care about me.

This year, I really changed. I don't even look her face. I have got 3 best friends and others, fuck others. I don't care anyone. I don't wanna events like last year. I won't allow to they can hurt me. Fuck 'em. I just living in the  moment. I joined to school's music team. I am singing. And I am really happy. My friends are, really funny. I forget my past.

Now, I am liking someone. He's very handsome, funny. I love him.

Don't forget guys, you only live once.

Live in the moment. And just have a really friends.